I Am Only Disappointing Myself

I say this as I am sitting at Wellington Airport a full 2 hours before my domestic flight**

I think I tend to take on too much. More than I can handle.

Seemed like a reasonable thing to do. Fly to Wellington for the day. A lot of people would have a full day planned. Walking the streets was probably high on the list.

Walking full stop, was probably high on anyone’s list.

Except ‘anyone‘ is not me.

I start out with the best intentions but then my knees decide they don’t want to cooperate. I’ve mentioned before that I have arthritis in my knees and it means walking gets very painful. I also have a heel thing – I don’t even know what it is, I need to go to a podiatrist but it causes me a lot of pain after walking for a while.

But I tried.. I really did.

I really did think that I’d be fine with what I wanted to do. And I guess, looking back, I did do everything I really wanted to do in Wellington. But then I think of my friend who went to Melbourne for a day and walked over 18,000 steps (though apparently according to my iPod I did walk over 7,000 today) and wish I could just get out and walk like no tomorrow.

It’s not that I don’t like walking, coz I actually do.  But physically my body screams if I walk more than 10 minutes at any one time. Luckily Wellington had loads of places to sit and ‘recharge’. But it is still a daily struggle.

So now here I am, sitting in an airport when I should be out checking out this cool little capital. And really the only person I have disappointed, is myself.**

** It is now the next morning and I am sitting at my mum’s dining room table back in Christchurch. I still feel the same as I did last night, if I’m really being honest.

14 responses to “I Am Only Disappointing Myself”

  1. But you did walk nonetheless from the sound of it. You have got to listen to your body after all, Sarah. Possibly a block of good chocolate to perk up the spirits? xx

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    1. I try to rest as much as I can while I’m out but it does get to a point where I just can’t go any further.. then I suffer for it then next day – luckily I have nothing on today until later tonight so I am just chilling at mums, eating marshmallows 😀

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      1. Now that sounds pro-puh. Well I am sorry to hear about the pain you suffer when you walk excessively. I wish there was a remedy. Is there?

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        1. Not for arthritis unfortunately. Just load up on pain killers before I go out. I am not sure about the heel thing – tho my mum did say this morning that my brother also has a sore heel too so maybe it’s just a family thing

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          1. See I have not much of an idea but I have heard of ayurvedic ways of easing the pain. Here’s a link to some information if it helps at all you think:
            https://www.yogitimes.com/article/ayurvedic-arthritis-rheumatoid-natural-home-remedies-treatment

            Of course you must be so well read on the subject. But just a thought.

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            1. Thanks for that info. I haven’t really read too much, only that it can’t be healed but pain management is a different issue. I hate taking pills for things to be honest so generally avoid them as much as possible haha

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              1. No it is a good thing to avoid pills as much as you can. I too follow the same policy. Ayurveda is about healing with the use of nature’s bounty. It takes time but it is supposed to yield results. Now I cannot vouch for it because so far I have only undergone ayurvedic massages which were excellent but they were not supposed to be medicative/pain relieving anyway.

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                1. Thanks for the tips!!

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                  1. You are welcome 🙂 Just a thought, I am hardly qualified enough to give tips frankly. Tc. xx

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  2. Don’t beat yourself up! you did as much as you could:)

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    1. Thanks 🙂 I just feel bad after I go somewhere because I have all these grand plans & then don’t go through with them. I need to not plan anything and then everything I do will then be a bonus haha

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  3. Nothing is worth hurting yourself over. As for the heel thing, it may be plantar fasciitis. My mom had it. She would freeze a bottle of water and roll it back and forth with her foot to ease the pain. You may want to try that.

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    1. Yeah another friend mentioned plantar fasciitis. I googled it and it sounds exactly like that. I will definitely try the ice thing! Thanks 🙂

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