That is what my relationship status on Facebook would be if I could update the status about the relationship I have with my brain.
I think too much. I overthink a situation. I think when I should be sleeping. I think about thinking (like right now).
Sometimes I think I’ll do something, knowing full well that I probably won’t, and the only person that gets disappointed, is me.
This is especially true when it comes to travelling.
Sure I plan these amazing trips; complete with spreadsheets showing what I’m going to do each day, how to get there, how long it will take and how much it will cost. And it looks really good on paper too.
But then, the day will come and I’ll be like ‘yeah, nah’ – a typical Kiwi colloquialism basically meaning “why yes I would love to do that very exciting thing, but no, I shall sit in my room and look at the four walls instead because that seems like way more fun!” (ok so it probably doesn’t mean exactly that, but you get my point right?).
This is the problem with having a planners brain.
I’ve mentioned before how much I love planning. It is one thing that I’m actually really good at. The problem is that my brain and my body do not like to communicate so my brain comes in all gung-ho with all these brilliant ideas and then my body will be like “Are you out of your freaking mind?!?!?!” .
It can be very frustrating because I then think of all the things I might be missing out on because my body doesn’t want to co-operate with the plans that my brain has spent so long making.
I want this next trip to be different. I want to do the things that I have written down.
- I want to get the bus from Stratford-upon-Avon to Warwick Castle and Coventry, even if it does mean that the day will be really long.
- I want to go to God’s Own Junkyard in Walthamstow, despite it kind of being a bit awkward to get to.
- I want to go out in London at night to do some cool night photography, even though I am a little nervous about being out on my own at night.
I know that the only person who can make the change is me, so… I’ll think about.